FROM THE CRUCIBLE

I came SO close to giving up a few days ago.

Giving up on my desire, my dreams, my vision…

Sinking into resignation.

I was so discouraged, so scared of failing, I’d rather check out than feel any of it.

And that’s ok, sometimes checking out is path too… and I really don’t have judgment about chocolate muffins, and occasionally binging on Netflix.

It’s just that there’s WAY more here for me. So much more.

And it’s not about Covid.

It’s not about the smoke and fires in the area where I live.

And it’s not about politics.

It’s not even about enrollment into my course, (and it also is totally about that!).

It’s about my own DESIRE.

It's about me deeply listening and trusting the voice of my soul that is trying to guide me towards fulfillment.

I was about to give up... because I feel scared and insecure.

I was about to give up on...

My desire to be devoted to my freedom and helping others in finding theirs.

My desire to see women turned ON in their lives.

My desire to be absolutely turned on in mine.

If I’m not all the way in, who am I to ask 6 women to SUBMIT to their devotion to their desire, to their soul, to their true inner life - fully?

Who am I to invite women to...
- stand embodied in their commitment to their desires
- work out all the the stuff that’s in the way of their HAVING-NESS
- design their lives the way THEY TRULY WANT
...if I’m giving up???

Life is offering me the gift of deeper commitment, and I'm saying YES even though I’m terrified.

I’m freaking out too, because I've only had three calls so far, … and I’m embarrassed to admit it.

And I’m diving all the way in anyway, because I want my freedom, and I want yours too.

And I have no idea what I’m doing.

I also know EXACTLY what I’m doing.

I don't want to walk the path mostly alone, hiding, or with just a few select people in my life...

I passionately desire the truth, the growth, the freedom… to be all of me, and for you to be all of you and to walk the journey TOGETHER.

I want to celebrate your desire. I want to feel the energy coursing through me when we all admit the truth of what we're afraid to claim as our desire!

I want to feel that fire, with you.

I'll share mine and you'll share yours... and together we'll weave a world made of turned on women who are overflowing with radiant love and vibrant generative life force.

We need this.

Aligning with our internal life is a huge gift, there is no failure, regardless of outcomes.

I’m serving my soul and jumping all the fucking way in, like never before. It feels like a cauldron. Who's jumping in with me?

So yeah, I’m still inviting you to schedule a call with me.

I’m afraid of what will happen when you DO reach out! It feels vulnerable and scary. And I'm also super excited and really want to hear from you.

I’m investing all of me, I’m not holding back.

I want to work with the women who also want to walk that journey with me. All the way in.

Heart, body and soul - that’s the braided path that I'm weaving. Do you want to weave it with me?

Parts of me still want to run and hide, but I’m not going to give up on my desire. Or yours.

I want to feel your desire, I want witness you align so fully with your truth, I want to support you in the process of facing all the pain and working all the shit out... for freedom, for truth, to live the life you want to live and to face everything in the way of HAVING IT.

I’m showing up, to be real, to feel you, to draw out your truth, to stand for your desire and mine.

Let’s feel the vulnerability of the moment, warmly, passionately, and together.

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