I feel a reverence and honor when I create from my soul. Over time, as I have anchored more and more parts of my soul home, I have also dedicated the devotion of my heart to serve it's purpose.
As a result, my life has changed.
The outside might seem the same, I still go to my clinic and do acupuncture, I still love the people in my life, etc., but my insides are different.
My insides are turned on, awake, alive, and engaged. I'm anticipating life and surrendering to the mystery simultaneously.
My outside reality constantly becomes more of an expression of my inside.
That's called turning the tide.
What I've grown from is a deep empathy wound, where my perception of other's feelings and needs was how I made decisions about my life. I didn't know what I wanted, so I couldn't be fulfilled.
Can you relate?
Our external reality has conditioned us and it's more than likely that you've lived with varying degrees of pressure to make the inside match the outside.
This pressure turns into:
...shame for not being good enough because you will never be able to make your insides adjust to the outsides;
...then shame evolves into blaming yourself when you cannot make your internal reality match the external expectation.
An example of this is feeling inadequate because a 9-5 "ordinary" job completely wipes you out and leaves nothing extra for you to enjoy and maybe even depletes you to the point of illness. The self talk around that is "why can't I be normal, everyone else can work these hours and have a social life, a love life, stay fit and eat healthy..."
This can even result in illness, because it's a violent way we neglect and attack our inner truth and knowing, our very hearts, bodies and souls. You may not have been designed to sustain modern societal norms.
This can also reflect super subtly, and it's a seemingly infinite process to turn the tide.
But it's a worthy use of your life, becoming yourself...
This is why I facilitate women's work, because every women I talk to wants more connection to herself and more authentic connection with others. They experience it as hard to find, but it's all there, within each of us.
This is also why I'm writing a book about coming home to sovereignty after living a life of the empathy wound.
More to come about that later!
We need to shift this whole mess inside out... it's time.
You are part of it. We are all part of a collective growth spurt. Do you want...
To go deep together, with a real sense of connection and support?
To be held in a comfortable and safe place to dive into vulnerable feelings?
To discover things about yourself that you didn't expect?
To be inspired to do things that bring you joy - that you forgot all about?