Last night, a women's group I had worked with for two years came to an unexpected closure.
I could have freaked out. And although I feel sad at the ending, I also felt kinda elated.
Not because the group was ending. But because a woman's soul spoke to her so clearly about her desire and she listened and spoke it!
She wanted to focus on growth in a specific area doing one-on-one work with me, rather than group work. She was up-leveling her commitment.
It was not only a gorgeous reflection back to me of the quality of deepened commitment I've been demonstrating... it was also so clearly her inner voice of truth speaking.
She was a bit scared to say it, because she knew it would impact everyone. The group was so intimate and had been together for so long, that it was not as simple as inviting a new participant to join it.
After hearing the news and reflecting, I realized the group had actually found its natural "peak" and it was time for a new form.
When this undeniable truth came to this woman, she was so powerful in claiming it, and her claiming her desire is inviting the other women to reflect deeply about their commitment, and their desire.
I am proud of her.
How could I do anything but completely trust the wisdom in the curveball that is rooted in soul truth?
So there we were on the last call of yet another 12-week deep dive, and it suddenly was the last call.
So I facilitated the closing of the circle.
It was emotional, and I could barely eek out our final closing ritual of chanting "3, 2, 1, BULA!" at the end.
Then when I had to click "End the meeting" on zoom, it was quite surreal.
I got off the call and sobbed, honoring the grief and feeling the loss.
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This group went deep, we played, laughed, cried, and re-wilded together.
Everyone, including me, came to love and care for each other with such trust, vulnerability, and warmth, it was truly a gorgeous two years of heart, body and soul adventures together.
Here's a few things these women said last night, in our closing the circle ceremony...
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What I’m most grateful for about this experience is learning that my truth was always there.
I valued being seen and being okay being seen, being a mess, and also not being a mess!
I’ve learned to slow down and trust myself, to speak my truth and use my voice.
What surprised me is that I have desire!
I’ve learned to articulate myself and feel comfortable doing it.
What I appreciated about this experience the most is not feeling judged about things I’ve spoken about, being accepted.
I value the way I’ve grown and the things I’ve learned.
Something I’ve really claimed along the way is that I want to be seen.
I figured out what my values are.
I’m grateful that I learned to let go of relationships that no longer serve me.
One of things I’m most grateful for about this experience as a whole is your guidance, Ronit.
I’m grateful for the vulnerability and the connection that grew from that.
I’ve valued having deep connections with women.
Ronit, I’m grateful for you how you know how to reach me and support me.